I STILL BELIEVE. I feel on top of the world right now. Like I'm getting a grip and accomplishing things!!
I feel like we're FINALLY as a family getting used to life with a baby!
Caspian is doing great...and so am I. I really feel like I'm on top of things at the moment...and am figuring out a new sense of balance.
I've poured a ton of energy into my son the past few weeks in an effort to help him see how much I love him despite the new addition...
And it is PAYING OFF! He and I went to Rainbow Falls the other day together, just he and I! I fed the baby really well before we left, and made sure she was taking a good nap, and then left her with daddy for two hours so I could spend time with my son. It felt incredibly unnatural, but as soon as Caspian and I got out together I realized how GOOD it felt to do something with someone who could walk and run and climb and explore...haha.
There's a beautiful woodland next to the Falls...and when I walked in the forest grove, it felt like I was entering a sanctuary. There is an ancient Banyan tree there...and when I saw it I felt a hush in my heart and soul. It was like going to church...these pics do not do that place justice. It was hallowed ground.
It was an amazing experience I shared with my son. I can already tell he is going to be my hiking buddy. He just loves to spend time in nature exploring.
Anyway, we've been spending a lot of time together, every chance we get...
Of course I am still mama to his very little baby sister too! When we're at home, every time the baby goes down for a nap it's "Caspian Time..." and we wrestle and lay on each other and cuddle and it's just AWESOME!! We are really coming together as a family now, it feels like...and he is starting to feel confident in the situation.
Today I heard, "I love you mama," over and over again...
Our family is coming together. Seraphina is a month old now!
I have noticed a change happening inside of me...I am being FORGED into a truly formidable woman. There is something about being a mother that just makes you TOUGHER. Stronger. More resilient. I think you get more of this the more time you spend around babies and children.
I'm functioning pretty well. I MAKE SURE to do 2 miles on the treadmill every single night, at a fast paced walk and incline. I'm only one month post partum, so I wish I could do much more, but I'm taking my time.
And I've started writing again. That's double plus good. I have my mind back and it's sharp, despite the sleep deprivation...
Everything is coming together.
I'm one determined mama.
I AM THE PERSON I'M MEANT TO BE.
I BELIEVE IN ME.