I'm starting Yoga Teacher Training on the 8th of May, 2015. There's a serious UH UH (means YES, sounds/feels like a caveman grunting deep inside of me) with energy moving me to this conclusion
It's kind of a leap of faith on my part. I'm having to remain fully focused on the fact that I am doing this training FOR ME. You see, I've had people '3/5ing' all over me, the past few weeks. It's been really tough...but in a way I believe that it was just preparing me for this new journey into yoga teacher training. If you're doing anything at all with your life, you will always have people judging you for it. At the very least, I'm getting a thick skin.
I'm skeptical that I'll make any meaningful connections with anyone else in the program.
I'm in the later part of my hormonal cycle so...I'm just naturally feeling more pessimistic. Leading up to my period is always the worst time to start anything new. But I'm just going through with it I guess. By May 8th, I should be either bleeding or done with it and a new cycle will have begun and I'll be happy I decided to do this.
In addition, the decision has been made to leave Hawaii in July and travel the mainland looking for a place to resettle. So a lot of changes are on the horizon. Just going with it, for the most part. Change is a HUGE opportunity for growth. That's why I like change.
So even though I am feeling very vulnerable, and flawed as ever, and people are casting stones at me left and right, at least there are things happening.
People have cast their stones at other people since the beginning of time...this wasn't the first time it's ever happened to me, and it won't be the last. But I persevere. I'm really good at picking myself up, dusting off, and continuing on.